Umm I can't believe people are actually reading this. Ha ha, that should motivate me to de-sloppify my writing, but then it just wouldn't be as great. At the end of the day I don't usually give two shits anywho.... We'll see.

I'm so enjoying spending time with just genuinely good friends back home. I must say, many of these friends I have taken for granted at one time or another and have just tossed aside in my mind, thinking "we are in different places in our lives now. Our friendship is just a formality" but i find myself more drawn to these people than ever. I want to be a real friend to them and to make an impact in their lives, like they are making in mine... okay enough of the mush.

But seriously I have had such great times and convos......I'm so thankful. Jordan's home from Iraq. I have the best conversations with that guy. Looking forward to some Lost and good movies and talks before he leaves again... He's such a fresh perspective in a sometimes suffocating town.

I'm also a lot less likely to put up with bullshit..... I'm not mean, I'm not coldhearted, I'm just beginning to get practical. There are some people out there who I used to long to be with that I am realizing are toxic and have slowly been weeding them out. It's awesome because I don't miss them once I do. Thankfully. These are not the kind of people you can change, but the kind of people who slowly change you not for the better. And I'm done with those kinds of things that are not good for me...yes, yes I am.

Then, there's the people who....how do I say this? ... think they know you, love you, want to be with you....what not. But they don't. The most nauseating of all is the feeling of being misunderstood. Terrible.

Apologies if my writing seems cryptic. I don't apologize for honesty, though. Sometimes I just need to vent, but I decided I'm no longer posting my blogs on private because sometimes a little censoring makes you realize that some thoughts I ought not to think.... You know?

In other news, I'm working up to running a 5k again. I am already getting faster and hope to surpass last summer's time. My sister's working on it too and she's doing an awesome job methinks. I've also been adding more weights and strength building stuff and really felt it yesterday while I was working. lol. I'm hoping that once I get up to my best time I can keep or improve it more this coming year at Malone. Thank God for putting things in writing. It makes you want to do it more.

I love Nerds. Candy and/or humans. Whichever one you feel comfortable with. Sprees are excellent.

Pharmacy life.....which is so different from my real life..... it's complicated. Easier to write about for others to see because my life is usually something i keep for private when it comes to the web. As a semi-internet-stalker it makes me nervous that someone will read this and know more about me than i about them... Back to pharmacy life. It's a little crazy right now because they sent me to this wonderful store that I love and the people there love me and it's great buttttttt the big guys think it's so wonderful that I'm an already trained tech that lives close to a lot of the pharmacies they need training in so they made up a little B.S. title for me and that is a "Floating tech" which is total crap but they want to put me where people need help when other techs go on vaca. Just so you know, there are people who all they do is be "Floaters" and that means they are pharmacists that go wherever they need to 7 days a week to whatever pharmacy for their job. And let me tell you, floaters get paid a sinful amount. SO I says to myself.....if I'm a floating tech, I'd better see the money for that stuff! Right? right. Long story short, I have worked a few times with my P.D.M (pharmacy district manager) and talk to him now and again and have a good relationship with him, so i called him on his cell today and told him the whole story, and thankfully, he recognizes my abilities and as a floating tech, I will get well paid the part too. Yay!

Also, the ugliest woman came in today. She actually wasn't that ugly but her behavior today made her ugly as sin. She was what we call a problem customer (not because of her attitude but because of her insurance, etc. we were just having problems getting her dad's meds covered) and because of all the problems she soon became what we call a Bitch...pretty self explanatory. Long story short, I bent over backwards finding out what was going on and then this lady, with her cell phone attached to her ear after not listening to a damn word I said, accused me of losing her father's prescription which was the farthest from the truth considering I was staring at it for 2 hours today. At that point I said "Okay" and walked away. She left and her sweet old father called apologizing profusely for her daughters behavior and he said he wasn't going to "fly away" if he didn't get his meds today. I said that's all good and fine but you ARE going to get your meds today and I'll make sure of it. He said something along the lines of oh that's okay i don't want to be a trouble, but to me, that is what I want! I want him, at the end of the day to go to bed with his meds on his dresser without a worry in his mind about how they got there. It's just the people who are damn retards that want nothing but to yell and complain to somebody that make me so irritated I can't even express.

This was kind of a crazy, crappy day overall for more reasons than one. I'm going to sleep on it and wake up early and fill my day with happiness and sunshine. This includes pb&j for breakfast and a long bike ride to somewhere I've never been before. Also lots of sunshine and perhaps some fake sunshine, who knows. Then I will shower, go to work, love my life, head over to hang out with Dane most likely and just enjoy my life. Yes, Yes I will.

God, are you still there?? I'm ready for You. I'm ready for something else. Come on in.